The Staining

Bleed.
my little heart,
bleed..
I have grown weary
Of this world...
Now
we must sleep for the
Rest of eternity

Rest for the next life

Poor little heart
You've been battered
Shattered
Torn to shreds
Yet,
some bizarre inkling of hope
Springs forth
And you catch onto it
And it spreads
Like wildfire consuming a forest
it spreads

But you have always been
So eager to trust
So eager to grab
A jagged rung to hold on to
You failed to notice that your
'hope'
was nothing but a worthless deception
and you watch the bloody reality settle in
and dry on your hands,
staining you forever
and this cycle goes on and on

After every brutal onslaught
the cycle repeats

That's why
This time
You will bleed

Bleed,

Bleed,
Like the tumultuous rivers
Of crimson deceit ran
From your dam
The night of the first staining

Bleed,
Like the agony of
First love lost

Bleed,
Like phoenix tears,
As they burst into eternal flame

So now you see why...
Bleed
Bleed
Bleed yourself dry........

A Double Shot of Rejection

I try not to
Love you,
Really
I do,
I do,
And I long for you to,
Love me too.

And I dream,
I dream,
Of heated trysts
Of stray away kisses
And lust-stained lips.......

But this is all but
A dream,
A dream,
For we are never to become.......

Wishes

My Adonis,
my friend,
my full stop,
my end..........

My secret lover,
It is a pity,
That we must hide our desire,
Under half-hearted facades of
Blue sky.

This agonizing lust
I have inside
Existing deliciously
In my mind
In between heated chocolate pillars
Ready to melt on your command....

A lust,
Twisted and impure
YOU BELONG TO ME.....

On closing my eyes,
Behind the comforting darkness
Of heavy lids...
You emerge.........
And you love me with a savage gentleness
Only fathomable by
And comparable with
The depths of consciousness
And sea........

Oblivion

Hiding in my own shadows
Waiting
For the sun to shine again
That is,
If its going to shine again at all
Until then ill stay hidden in my protective darkness
You cant hurt me
I'll be invincble
Your hatred,
Your jealousy,
My laughter as you try in vain
To break me down
Trying to kill what you cant see
Screaming into oblivion
The silent darkness pierced.
In my black cloak of the night,
I am swift like the wind,I fly like a bird.
You can't catch me,
Your own frustration is choking you,
You scream but the words cant come out.
The night belongs to me.
You were foolish to come into my world.
What did you think would come of it?
Conquest of my mind?
Control of my body?
The answer is nothing,
Nothing but your own demise.
And once again,I laugh.

Martyr

I'm like venon,
Slow yet potent

Worming my way
Through your veins

Poisoning,
Violating,
A welcome assasin

Like some demented tapeworm
Slithering through your systems
Watching you submit,
Tearing you apart
From the inside out
Raving mad with power
Its in your brain
Don't resist control
Accept your death
Die with honor
At least with the knowledge
That you 'loved' another.

My dear Ceasar,
Your time is up
Your lips are blue
Tinged with cold
You let love in too close,
Say your last words
Say "It's over"
And hope for new rebirth..

Many Moons

I'm tired
So weary of the games we play,
Longing for your promises
To be fulfilled.
And so,
I wait.
Many moons, many moons,
Have passed,
my love,
Since i started falling
Into your chasm
Of lies,
Of cries,
Of broken promises.....

Akin my Astra
My patience is wearing thin....

Wanderlust is rearing its ugly head,
Or in my case
Is it beautiful?

I yearn for something fresh
Something new,
Something beyond the archaic monotone
That has become our love....

Sometimes..
I remember the day that
WE
became an
ENTITY
My seeming saviour
From my solitude
And as I think of this,
A laugh escapes
My dry throat
Laden with bitterness
And poison abounding
Resentful
Of the word,
YES.....

The stars in my blessed night's sky
The clouds to lock the cursed day's sun
You were the embodiment
Of desire unfed,
Of loneliness defeated,
But as time snailed on
Minutes of pleasure,
Hours of passion,
Months of aprehension,
Years of slow but sure disgust,

I was forced to note
That all you were really,
Was the embodiment of nothingness
Made whole......

Sanctuary

Come to me
Come find sanctuary
Imagination is your wings
Come come
Let's soar
From the ore of reality
To the treasure chest of the mind

Ruby red passion
Emerald green joy
Sapphire blue calm

Come to my realm
Where the sky is blood red
And flowers bloom quavers
Where the lust never seems to waver

Come to my realm
Where the only beings that lie
Are you and IOn a bed of roses
Staring at the sky

Come to my realm
Revel in its lucidity
The evervescent serenity
Dance to the rhythm
Of hearts in tandem
Play your soul's bow upon my hearts strings
Play me an aria of love

So come with me
To a land not so far away
Spread your wings
Take my hand
I'll take you there today.....